When I started blogging seriously was around the same time I started feeling more self conscious of my body than any other time in my life–even junior high or high school. I was pretty darn pregnant and if I thought I hated my body when I had a round belly that was growing my kiddo, I hated it even more after the kid was out and I was left with inches worth of floppy, saggy skin, riddled with stretch marks.
Nothing I wore fit right. I didn’t feel confident in my body or in my ability to dress cute anymore. Let me tell you, that sucked. It took a major toll on my emotions. Here I was, someone who really used to enjoy fashion and getting ready in the morning, hiding behind my sweat pants and baggy t-shirts.
Eventually, I lost the baby weight. I got over my body issues. I looked good again, and most importantly, I felt good. But I had been away from dressing myself for me for so long. For over a year, I had been dressing for my son, and dressing for my insecurities. That old t-shirts I wouldn’t be upset about if they were vomited or pooped on, a hiatus from accessories that would inevitably be yanked on or ripped out, and baggy clothes to hide my post baby fluff.
All of this to say I was in a funk. A major funk. During this time, fashion blogging was on the rise. I had always thought fashion bloggers were pretty cool. “That might be fun to try someday,” I thought. Quickly, my inner critic spoke up.
“Who are you kidding?” she said. “You’re not photogenic enough to be a fashion blogger. You don’t have a unique enough sense of style.”
And I listened to her. Anytime I read a fashion blog I thought, “I could never be a fashion blogger.”
I think a lot of us feel that way. Maybe we love clothes and we love blogging, but we would never do an outfit post because we aren’t photogenic/pretty/thin/cool/confident/whatever enough to be a fashion blogger. Or maybe we’re afraid people would think we’re selling out, or just doing what everyone else is doing. Maybe we’re afraid they would suddenly look at our blog and think, “There goes another fashion blogger wannabe, chasing the free clothes.”
You want to know something though? I write fashion posts for me. There has been something so unbelievably liberating in getting right up in the face of my inner critic and saying to her, “Who do you think you are? I am absolutely photogenic enough for this. I do have a unique sense of style. I am pretty enough, and I am confident enough to do this. So sit down and shut up!”
That friends, is why I started writing fashion posts. And because I felt such liberation in trying something that scared me, because I have felt my confidence soar in discovering something else I loved and could be good at is one of the major reasons I approached Maegen about helping me to create The Creative Closet. Because dang it, I wanted other women to realize that they could do it too. There are no requirements for writing a fashion post. If you love clothes and you love blogging, go for it! Tell you inner critic to sit down and shut up and go out there and own your sense of style, and be confident enough to share it.
And while fashion posts aren’t all I write, I definitely love it. Because it’s changed me into a happier, more confident version of myself.